I’ve never been a stay at home mom. I will say unequivocally that it is as hard as being a working mom, maybe harder. When I was working, I had an identity, an income (not really, it all went to daycare but I did get some money going to SS), other people to talk to, something meaningful to do and just as importantly a second and third set of minds and eyes helping me problems solve issues with the boys.
My eldest starts school this fall and that means it will be just me and the little boy. He’s so sweet but extremely energetic and I think misses the structure of daycare, not to mention the other children to play with. But he’s also enjoying Mom time.
My problem is I’m not sure I will enjoy Mom time. I’ve never done it. But I don’t have a job lined up, not sure I will be able to get one and I’m waffling back and forth between take the year off and enjoy it and you should be doing something.
I put in an application today for a job I would be perfect for. But it would require me to drive 20-30 minutes each way. It would put significant time pressure on myself and the boys int he morning. It could limit the activities we do together during the week especially with Daddy Frog traveling so much.
I don’t know what the right thing to do is. I hate indecision.